the craft-o-matic

i'll start with an extended disclaimer, about the word "craft" then will digress to my original titled point after i've got the definitions ironed out.
i must admit that i dislike the term "craft"- i'm ambivalent about it, really at best. i like craftsman houses, i'm serious about craftsmanship (another term i'm ambivalent about- craft"man"ship? is this another word like handsome, meaning capable and strong and dextrous that is given to the male gender, and generally denied to women, or are we talking as in "manos" "manual" ? i like both and would much prefer to be called handsome anyday, rather than just "pretty". i'm also ambidextrous, which only adds to the confusion. another rant for another time. back to craft.)
i think of it in that light and i think of something serious, focused, meditative and skillful. something that work at its best feels like to me.
but there's a negative connotation to it to me, and this darkside is worth exploring in my mind. i am first reminded of these wooden lawn decorations common in rural/suburb coastal texas. painted shapes to look like plump women bent over, cheerfully painted flower print bloomers on display, tending the garden. i feel a little pity for it, and a little frustration/disgust. add to that, acyrlic yarn. add to that all that is lumped under the label "craft." the light in which the term gets no respect. when my mother says the word craft and means stuff that people have made, she uses a tone of voice similar to the one she uses when she says the word crap, and oftentimes i am an echo of her.
but whither this disdain? i'm going to argue that it's born from a lack of respect for what is generally regarded as "women's work" (silly dolly porch decorations made from nylons, excuse me, pantyhose and decorated with embroidery thread french knot eyes and some rubbishy acrylic hair, perched atop a mini broom and hanging from fishing wire come to mind)- uneducated, unskilled, and previously completely necessary women's work. okay. maybe not all completely necessary- the ornamentation of elaborate embroidery fulfills only the human desire for adornment for ourselves and for things like sacred spaces.
but quilts- a silly dotty old lady activity- were vital in keeping the folks who engendered most of us untaken by cold on cruel winter nights, before comfortor factories farted them out at alarming rates. (the sales i see on bedding confirm that many many of them do exist).
so, to reconcile with the term craft, i have all of these strange considerations themselves to reconcile.
and hold my head up high about the term craft, as in my case it is women's work, it is ornamental-necessary, and i execute it dextrously.
on to the "craft-o-matic"
i suspect this is a reason many etsy folk have two shops. one for supplies, one for work. or two for work. just different kinds of work. once the brain is spinning, really, the artist/crafter interprets the world in different ways that begin to mutate and change the output. i started off writing, took up crocheting and have continued evolving with both and i caught myself earlier designing valentines' cards and thinking about variations on the theme going, well it would be fun to make elaborate, one off art cards...
and then the (probably sensible) part of me says, look, that's not your job. you write and do this fiber stuff, and that's enough. you're not a draw-er, though you enjoy it sometimes, you're no print or paper artist. leave well enough alone, and just make them for love, for family.
then part of me goes, well, but that would be a nicer thing to do when it's hot than working with uh, wool?
then part of me goes, well it's not like that, it's felting experiment time when it gets hot.
part of me goes, you're not going to be able to do that all the time.
part of me goes, we'll see.